I wanted to disassociate myself from things where I was putting much time and energy, so that I could spend more time on my goals: my center. The result is that I have disconnected myself from my friends. I wanted to keep track of my friends through a database system that told me when I hadn't done important things to maintain a friendship that I wanted maintained. But I stopped working on that and started working on other things. On the other hand, those other things are my online community which dovetails into my paideia plans.

My groups of friends include about 30 relatives, an average of 5 Lowell High perople, about 15 Black Holers, about 30 ESGers, and about 20 SCAers. That's 100 people. I know connectors can do a lot more, but I'm not a connector. It seems like there are a limited number of ways that things can go at this point. Either I will find a way to keep in touch, or I will not. Either I will expand into new social groups of my own, or I will not, and my main socializing will happen within Claudia's social groups, as it has for the past 3 months. Ultimately, I think I could be happy with any of those, given that it isn't the only one. I want to try to combine pieces of all of these.

In addition to all of this, I want to get more involved in things at Olin. I don't want Olin to be just something I do from 9 to 5. I want it to be a way of life, in some way. I don't want to just be an instructor at Olin. I want to be an Olinite, as I have been an ESGer, and a Black Holer, and an SCAer.

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